..and when i grow up i wanna fuck a rockstar.

We all have like those celeb crushes when we are little. Like I was crazy obsessed with Kenny Chesney. From the time I was like, 10 until last fall, so when I was 21. I mean CRAZY obsessed. I had all his CD's I knew all his concert dates, I knew every lyric to every song, I had every magazine with him in it, I watched every TV special with him on it, I googled and went to his website everyday. I was in love with him. I saw him in concert 3 times, and they were amazing times. I mean, here I was in a room with the man of my dreams and 20,000 other people. The first time I cried. I was a senior in H.S. Dude, I CRIED! Then I woke up one morning and I said "I am wasting the best days of my life pining over Kenny Chesey. I haven't really like a CD since the Road & the Radio. I think I am over him." And just like that I showered and went to work. Amazing isn't it? How did that happen. My locker and walls were a shrine to the man. Like I still think he's smoking hot, but I don't buy a magazine just becuase he's on the cover. I don't scream like a little girl when he comes on the radio. and I don't confess my love to random strangers anymore. But...I still can't get over boys with guitars. Like, Lacey and I are going to see Forever the Sickest Kids in a couple weeks, and don't know much about them, since I have spent the last few years in a haze of my love for Kenny Chesney, so I was looking at them, and thought "whoa, they are like my age. maybe the will see me and fall in love." wtf! I am not the kinda girl that these boys like, I mean, I have no cool colored hair, and I don't wear skinny jeans, and I have no peircings or tat's, but we do share a love of splatter paint... I look at all these guys in bands, and just can't wait for them to fall in love with me. ya know, they will see me at a concert, all the odd girl out, and that will be the begininng of our romance. I am pretty sure it's these romance novels that I read. they are hot and steamy and average girls hook up with rich superstars, and ceo's, and rockstars, and racecar drivers. They make me think that anything is possiable, but it's not, at least yet. I mean who knows a girl can hope? right? ps- an old man said i was pretty cute today. he is the only guy to comment my looks in like, forever. ugh. I need to meet a boy. asap. xo-K

boys=happines?

Someone told me this once.."you're one of those girls that needs a boy at all times to be happy." Is it a boy that makes us happy or the idea of a boy? Well. I would like to think it's a little of both, but it's hard to say. At times, I like having a boyfriend, but maybe i'm more happy that I can actually say I have one. Maybe I dont really care to have this so called boyfriend. Maybe that's why relationships tend to fail, and move along too quickly. You just get so wrapped up in the idea of the relationship instead of the things itself. I don't think i am a girl who needs to have a boy in her life to make her happy. I mean boys have made me happy before, sure. I can honestly say that. But I don't need to continuously have to remain happy. I just like to continuously have one. =] These are known facts: *you can't cuddle with yourself. *you can't make waffles with yourself..sure, sure..you can DIY, but not the same. *you can't kiss yourself. *you can't hold your own hand without looking like a weirdo. *you can't dirty text yourself. *you can't stare into your own eyes and get lost. *you can't give yourself butterflies. *you....well you get the point. While all these things may make you feel happy, there are alternatives. So am i going to go clinically depressed and psycho if i do not have a boy? pshhh no! and no girl should base her sole existence on someone of the opposite sex. that's just an absurd and ridiculous idea. be a strong, independent woman, and if some dude happens to come along...well so be it. but don't seek happiness through a penis. Make yourself happy. and worry about the rest later. Oh, and someone once said that I didn't have much of a personality either. HA. look how wrong he was on that. xxox, L

Looking Sexy :: Feeling Good

When you feel good, you feel sexy, when you feel sexy, you look sexy. Why? CONFIDENCE When you are confident about your looks, it oozes out of you, and lets face it, boys like confident chicks who have all their shit together. When I feel the sexist is when I have my hair done, and it looks great, big in all the right places with the perfect headband, flower, whatev. I am wearing the hot new jeans I got at Torrid (if you are bigger check them out! It's a bit more expensive, but totally worth it.). Some heels, I wear them for many reason a) my pants are so long and I hate when the back gets all ratty in the back b) they are so cute c) I like to feel tall. I usually wear something like a v-neck when I wanna look smoking. They are classy and casual and I like to layer, so they look great with a lacy cami underneath. My make-up goes along with my attitude for the night. Sometimes I like to do something aweseome, other times, a smoky eye is all I need to look smoking. Finally, the most important part of feeling sexy for me, is what I am wearing under it all. Even though no one has seen it, it still feels good to put on something hot under it all. It's like those days you skip wearing panties and it makes you feel naughty. Here are are some great places to get lingere, lets face it, sometimes the Walmart just isn't that awesome :)

• Hips and Curves- A great online store, pretty cheap too!
• Fredericks of Hollywood- Hot! kinda tacky, like feathers and sequins, but I like that
• Victoria's Secret-Well, it's not too much of a secret anymore...not really good for big girls
• lingeriediva.com-An online shop, good selection!
• trashy.com-HOT like FIRE! kinda pricey...
• ...and you can never go wrong with a trip to your local 'Adult Shop'

xo-K