boysboysboys

Lady Gaga says it best boys boys boys, we love them! Do I love them? Or do I love attention from them? I haven't met one that I love. I try to give my all to one in a few, but when I do, I just get frustrated and want one here. Now. I like going out. But I hate the type of boys I meet. I hate my boy situation right now. So much. I hate that the boy I want, lives 289 miles away. And doesn't seem to have an interest in coming here. And doesn't want me to bring my life partner along. (hmm, because he wants to kill me?) My friend and her bf want to hook me up with his, bro...but he doesn't talk. And the last guy I went on a date with that didn't talk, it didn't go well. It kinda makes me very insecure. I love my life right now, I just want a boy to have some fun with. Nothing serious, because I'm not a serious kind of girl! xoK

Happiness

I know you'll read this. And you may be upset that I didn't bring this to you first. And I'm okay with that. Finally I'm okay with that. I've been tip-toeing around your emotions, holding things back, because I didn't want to do anything to upset you, in fear that that may be the last time I would ever talk to you. But I can't live life like that. I need you to know. You say you care, but you have things going on in your life right now. Okay. I get it. [I'm blonde, not mentally challenged]. You say you mean/meant everything you say/said. And you're not sure why I find it so hard to believe. Now I know why I find it unbelievable. Soulmate: Noun; Verb; The first time you glimpse at each other you are immediately drawn to each other, extremely different than ever recognizing anyone you have ever met before. You already know them, feel who they are. Then you speak and realize this is the most amazing person you have ever met and you feel unnaturally comfortable with them. Instead of wanting to know the "basics" about them it is like meeting an old friend you haven't seen in ages and it is time to catch up. This is the person you have been searching for. In that moment the longing stops but you don't realize until you are forced to be apart. This person completes you on a spiritual level and anything could happen, good or bad, one look in their eyes brings a smile to your face and peace to your heart. Suddenly everything you have worked for in your life becomes clear and the path you were unsure of following is now being lit for the both of you to follow. All your fears vanish and you no longer question your purpose in life because together the purpose evolves on its own. You find their insecurities as parts of their soul you need to heal. Mutual understanding and respect. Days filled with laughter. Even if you are sitting next to each other, touching each other, it still feels like they are miles away because that person could never be close enough yet at the same time it feels like you are melting together and your spirits are dancing. I know it's lengthy. But this is what a soulmate (I doubt I could even define it better myself, in my own words) is. This is what I experienced... This is not how you feel. And now I realize this. Why am I waiting for you, when you can't or simply won't do the same for me. This makes me seem mentally challenged. This proves how 'blonde' I can be. I want to remain your friend. But now I know we may never possibly be more than that. And I can finally say I'm okay with that. I'm okay to be really good friends with you...We had a good run while it lasted, right? We made eachother happy when we could. But life happens, and people change. [Change in short amounts of time apparently]. I believe you may have found true happiness somewhere else, and now I'm going to try and do the same. xo

Defo Bars

Ha ha. Kendall's tatas mixed with one too many mixed drinks.

Players

We all know what a player is. And no, I'm not talking about someone who plays in some kind of sporting event. I'm talking about those who use and abuse the hearts of those in the game of love and life. The kind of player, that I wanna punch in the face. We've all came across them in our lives. And if you haven't yet, you just wait. Players are (as defined by the Urban Dictionary): N. Plural form of the word player. See also playa. 1. A group of people, usually guys, who "play" or manipulate others to ultimately get what they want, like sex or money, by using charm, game, and a often, a lot of lies. Usually, they act cool, cocky and think they're "all that" -- God's gift to the earth. However, underneath the game of all players, you will find an insecure person who depends on his player image to build his ego and make himself and others think he's the shit. Players need to feel worshipped. Male players usually call their women some term that reduces them to sex objects, like baby doll. This truly is an excellent definition. I feel as if I have nothing else to write about because this hits it on the head. So, what do you do when you encounter a player in your life? Well that's simple. Run. Don't stick around to see what happens with this jerkface. Players go hand in hand with cheaters. Once a cheater, always a cheater. Once a player, always a player. I could and should tell you a story about this guy named Tyler, but that's a whole other blog, for a whole other day. A quick summary though =] ...he ended up sending me a text that was meant for someone else (while he was in my car with me) that said, and I quote, "Baby, I can't wait to fuck that tight little ass of yours." End quote. Ha. Needless to say, he was shocked. And I wasn't. Because... He's both of them, and he'll never change. So i told him to delete my number from his phone and leave me alone. Anyway... How do you know if your dude is a player or not? Oh, you'll know trust me. Most of the things he does, are for himself. He's very selfish and conceded. He does things when they're convenient for him. Maybe he just got out of a relationship, and youre just a rebound. Sex is all he's about. Goes with the last blog about lust. He never shows true emotions, or shows them too often to try and make you beleive he means them, but really doesn't. They hardly make sense. And try WAY too hard. They try to get in your pants within the first few times of hanging out. If they're a hardcore player, they'll try and get in your pants the first time you hang out. So... Watch out. Players are sneaky. But not smart. They're full of themselves and often leave out important details that eventually get them caught in the long run. And don't you worry, karma is a bitch. And will catch up to every player eventually. xoxo, L

true love vs true lust

I don't pretend to know everything. Because I know that I don't know it all. I'm young and still learning. BUT I do know enough. As of now that is. I feel I have learned enough to know the difference between love and what we like to call lust, for I have experienced both. Do I believe that it's possible to find 'true love'? Yeah, probably But. I also believe it's possible to find 'true lust'. And. I also believe that people get the two confused way too often. I can honestly say that I thought I have found love before, but turns out, it was just lust. I guess I should start out by defining the two; love (noun): The most spectacular,indescribable, deep euphoric feeling for someone. lust (noun): Often confused with love, it is purely physical attraction and has no lasting effect. So, now that we know the definition between the two, how can we determine the difference in our relationships? Well...here's where I put my two cents in (which comes from experience): Love well as stated, it's indescribable, but i'm going to do my best. you miss this person [you love], when they're away. you don't necessarily miss their 'sex', but you miss everything about them. their smell, their voice, their laugh, their touch, etc, ect. they're, quite possibly, on your mind 89% of the entire day. and probably take up most of your dreams. you often check your phone to see if they've called/text you. when i say often, i mean every couple mins. whenever you're near them, you feel like anxious, nervous, happy, care free, and just..well, amazing. like they're your healthy drug. kissing this person [you love] sends chills down your spine, and makes you light headed. it's like a million fireworks going off all at once. no matter how often you talk to this specific person, it just isn't enough. and at the same time, you're not getting sick and tired of each other. you may see cute girls/boys but don't really acknowledge them. they don't really matter to you because you'll have all that you need in this person [that you love]. lust you text/call this person (along with a few others) when you're feeling a little randy, and are looking for a hook-up. your conversations have no depth, and are often short or one word answers. it's a one sided relationship. meaning one person is putting forth the effort, while the other is not. you met in a bar. you never meet your true love in a bar. you can be making out or having sex with this person, but be thinking about someone/something completely different. sex just isn't exciting to you with this person[you're in lust with]. Or, if the sex is exciting, that's the only connection you may have with this person. lust is something that usually doesn't turn into love, because most of the time, the feelings are not mutual between the two people. I would never expect something serious to come from this, so [do not] get your hopes up. I could go on and on, and list numerous things in each category, but until you experience both, you'll never truly know the difference. Love and lust both have their ups and downs. I suppose it just depends where you're at in your life and what you're looking for. I'm all for love though. The true blue kind. the kind that makes you go crazy. keepin' it real, the infamous L