Maybe.

Is it so wrong to dig more than one guy at the same time? I mean it's not like I am fucking them. I feel bad only because the edgy one, told me that not only did I make him believe that he was my favorite boy, but my only. ok, so wtf. I must be a good actress then. and now I feel like I am leading the comfortable one on. so I told the comfortable one that I can't do it anymore. he had me up on this stool and made me seem like the most amazing girl on the planet. I'm not. I feel like with the comfortable one, things would get too...comfortable. With the edgy one, i think it would change a lot. I think the comfortable one would want to do the normal get married thing. And I want to get married but not for a long time. I want it with someone that will keep me on my toes. But since I fucked it up, I guess that's not going to happen. But the edgy one has a zillion myspace girlfriends who tell him how much the love him. Ya know what he told me? that those are groupies. wtf. he has groupies. but how I am supposed to know he doesn't say...I wrote a poem about you, to them too? I don't know. He goes on dates all the time. whats up with that. The edgy one also wouldn't call me, he said he was shy on the phone. But he didn't have a problem sending me a picture of his penis... I can't wait to go to bed an cry a little. becuase I seem to have just lost the best thing that would never happen to me. ugh. xO K

It's easier to hurt boys than get hurt by the boys you really like.

You Say It Best....

I think most girls have a problem with what boys tell them. And it's not like they are telling you that you have a gross body and you make them want to throw up. It's the good stuff. It's the stuff that's like... I can't wait to wake up in the morning to see you. You are so beautiful. You are the complete compliment to me. I bet you look good, but then again you always do. I want to kiss you and hold you tight. You're amazing inspiration. You're gorgeous. You're my soulmate. Making you smile, means the world to me. From a young age, girls are brought up to beleive that when boys say things like this, it's just to get into our pants. But what if they really mean it? What if they don't? I mean, the nicest compliments I get are from my friends. Why is it so hard to imagine that someone would say this to a girl and mean it? Probably because things like this only happen in chick flicks. Not to normal girls like me. I can hope all I want, but when it's really happening, it doesn't seem real. xo K